And so it begins.....

This personal blog isn't about just one aspect of my life. It will encompass not only my current weight loss journey but also my love of fashion, makeup, my family, my boo thang and so much more!  For my initial entry I didn't want it to necessarily set this blog up to feel like a weight loss diary but the freshness of what has happened over the last three months is too important to push aside.  So bear with me and please join me in this journey to a fabulous 30 and beyond!!

To start off I started this journey over 2 years ago. I topped the scale at 284 pounds and this is where my journey started. I knew I was placing my life in danger because I have diabetes on both sides of my family and my parents are currently battling the "diabetic" lifestyle. I knew I couldn't keep up with life the way I was if I wanted to avoid those types of health issues. So I decided to start a change.  I gave up all fast food (anything with a drive thru); I downloaded the myfitnesspal app on my iPhone and began the journey of calorie counting. I decided to hold off on joining the gym because I knew I wouldn't go. So for the first month I was 100% honest with my counting and dropped 12 pounds. That just shows how much I was eating and how high in fat the food I consumed was. I then kept going but found the need to have a little cheat here and there. I found myself down 20 pounds within 3 months. Then I joined the gym.  With calorie counting and gym 2-3 days per week I got down to the smallest I had ever gotten that far in my adult life and that was 255 pounds. This is where it got tough. I had difficulty saying no to eating out. Yes, I gave up fast food but it didn't stop me from eating at sit down restaurants on the regular.  I lived the social life of a 28 year old. I drank occasionally and ate out more often then I should and although I tried to make good choices at restaurants I didn't have the ability to say no to invites. 

Overtime I began noticing how my behavior was the product of my environment and I decided to find a way to change that.  I through myself into my studies and worked on being a 4.0 student.  This helped me to say no to social invitations and kept me home more and out of the restaurants.   I also began joining weight loss challenges and trying new workouts and it worked but I had not gotten below that 255 and actually got back to 265. This was around the time I moved back in with my parents.

It was almost my 29th birthday and I had found love and he is the greatest thing to have ever happened to me but I was still in a place where I wasn't happy with myself because I had yet to reach a goal on my weight loss/ healthy/no diabetes journey. My self confidence wasn’t the issue.  If you know me you know I love myself and have never really been the type to hide behind anything.  My weight didn’t define me and it never has.  Yes I had days where nothing felt like it fit and I didn’t like how I looked in the mirror but those were just days they weren’t my everyday life.  I was raised to love myself no matter how I looked on the outside.  I feel this confidence could in fact be the reason it took me to get to 284 pounds to actually make a change.  It took me getting to almost 300 pounds to identify that this was a health issue and it needed to be fixed.  I had a person very close to me work with a trainer and she did amazing so I researched him and his program and I sent the most important email of my life in July 2013. I emailed Dante to ask him for information on pricing and his program and even after composing that email that said "yes I'm ready" I was hesitant.  I had never been so vulnerable in my life. I didn't want anyone knowing what I was doing outside if my own family and James because I knew there was a good chance I'd fail. 

I spent the last month of my 28th year gearing up. I ate out more than I allowed in previous months and decided to start with the trainer four days after my 29th birthday and boy was I nervous! The first night was a fit test and I failed miserably. I didn't find time to eat prior and I had horrible water intake (as usual) so it was already starting off as weak. Following my initial day I was sent a meal plan and exercise plan. I worked out with Dante 3 days per week and went to the gym the other 4 days and did cardio only. I lost 8 pounds in one week and I was hooked! I wasn't just hooked because of the loss I was also hooked to the workouts. Yes they were tough and I looked at the clock every 5 minutes but at the end of them I felt powerful and confident that I could put myself in uncomfortable situations and prevail.

When it came time to look into whether or not to continue with Dante or go on my own with his teachings in my arsenal (of course cost was an issue) I was granted a great opportunity that allowed me to continue with Dante in a group training format with a challenge included. So, for the last 4 months I have been on a journey of a lifetime. I have fallen off the wagon and made bad food choices but I have always gotten back up from those hits and kept going. The hardest part was getting through November and December!

The holidays are tough and I finally looked at my log book with a critical eye trying to decide where I am going on this journey. In the month of December I lost 12 pounds. In November and December combined I lost 20 pounds. I didn't necessarily make "good" choices everyday but I kept my mind focused on making those "bad" choices not as costly, meaning they didn't break my daily or weekly plan. I am never going to preach to the world that this will work for everyone but I can't help but wonder how so many gimmicks are out there that promote losing weight or being healthy as something that doesn't take into account eating healthy nutrient enriched food and exercise. It's simple, if you really want to make a change you'll learn how to do it in the way that suits your lifestyle, although for me the first step in changing was changing my lifestyle because what I was living before was not going to promote or help me get anything done. 

                                                           
I find this as my opportunity to prove myself wrong and everyone else right. Everyone says I can do it and I now believe I can. I am only 9 pounds away from 50 lbs down and only 25 from my first initial goal of 199 pounds (I haven't been under 200 since middle school!).  I go to the gym even when I don't want to, I eat healthy food and stay mindful that my cheats should not beat me and I go to training every Tuesday and Thursday with the mindset that I am the only person standing in my own damn way.

I will meet my goals and I will live a lifestyle that will prevent the health risks that plague my family. I will be a motivator for those who need motivation and I will be the truth speaker for those who need a reality check. I am known for speaking my mind in this moment in time I am empowered not only by what my mind can push through but what my body is showing me it can do (I actually RAN a 5k without stopping and have signed up for a 7mile run in March!)

In conclusion this blog is going to be about me, my life, my journey, my likes and dislikes and I hope you enjoy the ride with me :)


FashionistaSara (my new name given to me from the amazing Dante) J